So today I had the day off. I had a website I had to build for a project in my Information Technology class and I think it turned out pretty well. The problem I ran into today is when I work on a website, time goes into a crazy fast forward. I took advantage of not having to work today to grab some extra sleep of course, but soon after I fixed my breakfast at 10 am (horrible me) , I checked the clock and it was 2:30, time for my wife to get home. I don't know what it is but doing that kind of work just puts me in a zone. I can't stop until everything is perfect. The real problem is I didn't do anything else today. It needed to be done though, and it turned out excellent so I'm glad I took the time to do it. I had my Skype conference with my classmates to unveil the project and after that, that's when I noticed I was getting hungry. I grabbed a tablespoon of peanut butter to tide me over and soon started making my supper. I was so hungry by the time I started piecing it together, I kind of over did it. I'm proud I didn't have any bread with it but I killed 2 cans of tuna and 3 hard boiled eggs like they owed me money. I made a HUGE tuna salad and had 2 boiled eggs on the side. I think its the first time in my life I have overeaten on a salad.
So after supper, I was ready to veg, even though I had less than 500 steps in. Well my wife came to me and asked me if I was going walking and I started with the excuses. I ate too much, my back hurts... etc. Thankfully she didn't give up and I strapped on my shoes and we headed out. I was set to do my normal walk but the dog really has a problem walking with me because I am so slow. If I walk faster, I burn out quicker and my back is killing me when I'm done. So my wife and kid went on ahead of me and when I reached my normal turn around I turned and started back to the house. My wife and kid continued. As I was walking back, the dog pulling me to hurry up, I started thinking, "You know, you're a piece of work. You post on this blog about trying to turn your life around and how much work it's going to be and then you do the same walk to the same stop sign every day. You aren't even trying to push your limits." So I walked the dog up to the house, put him inside and headed back out. This time I walked around the block which has a couple of more hills than the normal route. I kept my pace steady and pushed through any pain. When I got back to the entrance of our neighborhood, my wife and kid were just coming back from their extended walk. So up the hill all of us went back towards my house, all the while that voice still saying "You're not doing enough!" We topped the hill and started to turn down our street and it hit me. "You wanna run, then do it!" so by God I did! For the first time in I know at least a decade, I pulled my sweats up and I started running. It wasn't but probably 20 yards and I know I looked like a fool but who gives a damn! I WAS RUNNING! I ran all the way to my front yard and it felt so weird. I haven't run for exercise since I was in 10th grade and I am 43 years old now. Pushing 370 lbs down the road isn't easy but it felt wonderful and believe you me tears of joy are running down my face as I type this.
I cannot wait until the day comes that I can run around my block just once. I cannot wait until the day comes when I don't have to struggle to put on socks. I cannot wait until the day comes when the thought of dread doesn't fill my being when I have to tie my shoes. I cannot wait until the day comes when bending over to pick up something I dropped isn't a public spectacle. I cannot wait until the day that I can buy clothes in a "normal" store. And if I have anything to say about it, that day WILL come.
OK, enough boo-hooin...lol. Even with that emotional session, I have to admit I did not reach my goals today. My stats for the day were: 4,159 steps, 1.96 miles, and 56 oz of water drank. I did however climb 11 flights of stairs today also and that's a new record for me. I also steered away from soda and bread successfully today. Take the good with the bad is what I've always heard. I think I have more good today than I have bad.
On a side note, since I have a wonderful daughter who is on the Autistic Spectrum, I have decided to sign up to walk for Autism. They aren't having it until October this year so I think I have plenty of time to ready myself. I'll post more about this as I officially sign up and learn more about it. Also my wife has suggested I do a review post for my fitbit, so look for that in the near future also.
Anyways, I'll leave y'all with some photos of the day, one of them jumped out at me and made me think of FogDog so I'll add it too.
Y'all be great!!
Fat Man!!
Fantastic job on your mini run 🏃. You'll get there, I'm sure of it... One step at a time.
ReplyDeleteThanks Dfreeman! That's the way I'm taking it, one step at a time. I'm just impatient and can't wait till I get there. It's kind of like when you were a kid and going on a trip to the beach...lol! I really appreciate your support!
DeleteGreat post FM and thanks for having the courage to share the emotional part of it as well. We share a lot of similarities in our journeys so I can relate to your enthusiasm. Be mindful (advice for both of us) to not let that enthusiasm create false expectations; we both have a long way to go.
ReplyDeleteI like your inspirational photos segment. The one about fear reminded me of a blog post I did back in August when I was gearing up for this new journey. You can check it out HERE
I got some good news on the scale this morning.. stay tuned for my post today
Stay Strong!
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DeleteI saw your good news FogDOg! Congrats and good job. I also read your blog entry from back in August and I can relate 110 %!
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